Sometimes It Just Doesn't Work Out

I failed.  For the first time since I started trying to be brave, it didn't pan out.  I was brave, but magical things didn't happen like they normally do.  Instead, I was embarrassed.  I didn't even know what to say.  I don't remember if I said anything.  And I realized what I've known for a long time, but what is sometimes hard to come to terms with.  That is that sometimes it just doesn't work out.  Other people get to make choices too.  I won't deny that I think I'm a little gun-shy now.

That's not to say it was bad.  Quite frankly, that's probably the bravest I've felt through this whole entire experiment.  So it was worth it.